This week when I looked at my soul in the mirror I saw ugliness and selfishness. It was a tad bit horrifying. I have begun to pray this very frightening prayer:
God, if the fear of losing my possessions keeps me from serving you with everything I have. If I am so afraid that my precious things will get lost, broken, or stolen, that it prevents me from reaching out to those you send my way...
Then please, take it all away. My computer, my money, my house, my food... my family (gasp)(heartbreak).
Let me tell you. I am not sure which is harder. The self-realization of selfishness or putting that selfishness directly into the hands of God.